The 4th of July

To me, the 4th of July always means work… It’s a holiday and if you work retail, you can rest assured that you will be at work. Which brings on the question…why work at a place the you’re not happy. Is it normal to always hate your job?  

Adults- older people than myself- always say that if you do something you love, you’ll never work a day in your life. I’ve always worked retail and although it has its perks- I sometimes wonder how different things would be if I worked if I was already in my career and really enjoying my job…well here’s to figuring that out! 

I saw this photo and quote and… Maybe she’s right. Or maybe that’s how you feel when you’ve found your calling. Here’s to everyone still figuring their life out! 


Life after exam

“Nothing in life is easy” said every parent alive right now.

If you’ve ever taken a 7 hour exam, then you can relate to the brain fart that is the 48 hours after the exam. After stopping your life to prepare for said exam, and stressing yourself for months on end, your brain just kind of stops. What exam am I talking about you may ask? The First year law students exam.

Law school is one of those animals that has many routes. As for me, I have taken the part-time, on-line DIY type of learning. The only caveat is that you must prove to the state that you have learned first year topics as the students that have gone to an ABA school- this means American Bar Association approved school. So $700 dollars and 7 hours later, you must wait about 2 months before your results come in the mail…arghhhh!

Anyhow, enough of my complaining. I’m happy that we have the option to pursue higher learning once family life and/or work begins. To anyone else that is pursuing higher learning, you rock. Like you rock so hard, that if I knew you i’d buy you coffee and a cupcake. This shit is hard. Really hard. Especially when the kids want your attention or want to play…or everyone else is hanging out and having fun without you. You keep telling yourself that it will be worth it in the end but it really doesn’t feel that way all the time.

If you are on a similar path like I am…keep going. As hard as it is there is life after school. And hopefully the kids won’t remember- or they will remember and they will be happy that their parents want to be better.



Post baby hair

I know women probably suffer from this after having a baby…and that is losing your hair… A lot of it. Postpartum alopecia was something I had never heard of until it happened to me. I lost some with my first baby and even more with my second. Here’s a picture a few months after her birth: 

missing my hair

It’s worse than it looks and oddly enough my little girl and I are missing hair up front! It’s a small issue I know but it bugs me. I work in front of people all day long so you can imagine the difficulty in hiding this – so far all I wear are headbands and I’m waiting for it to get longer for bangs…anyhow that is all I have for now!


My hair is finally at the point where it is blending in with the rest of my hair (joy!). I’m getting so close to being able to cut bangs… Just counting down the time! 

My only concern now is all the gray hair that is starting to pop up. It’s even more noticeable now that I no longer dye my hair. I hate that gray hair is noticeably coarser than regular hair. Blah. At least the bags will come soon…until next time!


What do you really want?

As a youngster, when I was asked “What do you want to be when you grow up?” I always thought: Lawyer. Even now in my adult life, this is still the career I want to pursue. And now there are a few different ways to go about doing it. You can attend school either physically or on-line. I have done both so far, and let me tell you neither is easy. In fact, I find that attending school on line is much more difficult than attending school with physical students. At this point in my life, I have often felt like giving up.  I am over 30 and I have kids and pets and a house that somehow always remains in a messy state. But the road I have chosen to pursue my goal is a rough and lonely one. I chose to go to school on line and now have realized that I need to put on three pairs of big girl panties to finish this goal. Giving up is not an option- especially the lofty debt attending any type of schooling puts you in.

Today I decided to postpone taking the baby bar exam. I missed it the first time around due to scheduling, but this time there is so much going on, that I feel like for my sanity and for the sake of giving the exam all i’ve got, I should wait. Even though deep down it isn’t what I want to do, I feel that I need to wait. I go back to work in two weeks from maternity leave and as soon as I go back, my husband goes to training for a couple of months for a new job. I suppose sometimes, you really have to cut yourself some slack and look at the bigger picture and realize putting things off isn’t so bad.

Now I start planning on tackling this exam once again and caring for the kids, pets and home.  I know I sound so whiny but sometimes I miss being a kid when all you had to worry about was yourself. It is funny to me know that when I was in college when older people would complain about life, I didn’t understand nor was I sympathetic…now I am those people!!! Funny how the tables turn and now I know exactly what I would say—Take your time.

My new mini me agreeing with my mood!

My new mini me agreeing with my mood!


Carter watching Pocoyo while mom does homework--and snaps this shot

Carter watching Pocoyo while mom does homework–and snaps this shot

I have stopped to smell the roses- at least for a few minutes before I begin my silly essay writing assignments. Today is Saturday and often for most people, its a wonderful day off. For me, it’s hump day and school day. I bought my son a play doh cake mountain which is why he is thoroughly entertained for the morning. I remember the fun of play doh as a child and now as an adult, I find these hard dried out balls of modeling compound all over the house. I suppose it’s all a give and take. He’s turning 3 on September 27th. I cannot believe almost 3 years have gone by. I am more tired than I have ever been in my life. I am more forgetful than I thought I would ever be, but I feel like I am smarter than I ever was. I think of all the silly things I used to think were important, and all the silly things I used to worry about. For example tanning. My good friend and I had a membership to a tanning salon because we were convinced we looked awesome. Then some months later I found a zillion moles than thankfully have not gotten any bigger or changed in shape. I used to worry about my purses not being “designer” enough and now–I just hope my purses can fit a diaper and some wipes! It just baffles me how superficial I was and now I am more realistic. Don’t get me wrong, I still want nice things…but they are just thoughts. With the endless list of things to do, places to clean and topics to study, I barely find enough time to just think and be still let alone shop for things that cost as much as my bedroom set. It’s funny how birthdays have a way of forcing you to re evaluate life and they way things are. I hope everyone has a wonderful Saturday!

Late night work

It’s about 1 a.m. Right now. The living room is quiet- the only thing I hear is the whirring of the refrigerator and the ringing in my ear. This is one way that I tend to get a little more done– I wait to do it late at night— although I can’t seem to stop yawning. I have my coffee and creamer ready to keep me up for another good hour.




Late nights

Today was a fairly productive day- got some reading done, took down some notes… My only sadness today is that I dropped my laptop. Hard. And now the aluminum is dented. The machine still works thankfully, but I’m so upset about it falling. That’s the second thing that doesn’t normally happen to me that happened to me. I hope this trend goes away!
As far as my student tidbit, I have an app that I really enjoy using. It’s called weave, and I believe it is by intuit. It’s a great way to keep track of projects and assignments even things that may not have to do with school. It’s free and easy to use. I’ve been using it now for about a year and I’m pretty satisfied with it. Just wish you could customize the color I the actual app. This is a peek at what mine currently looks like.


Got my life back!

It’s been a minute since I last posted anything… And there’s a good reason. A weeks or two ago, my Friday was awful hectic. Both my normal sitters were out of commission for personal losses and my back up care (bright horizons) for the 3rd time, were unable to locate an emergency babysitter. So I promise to go to work late… And unfortunately everything was out of whack. From getting the baby ready, to getting his diaper bag to getting myself ready to making it through traffic.
As we’re walking out if the house to drop the baby off at a friends home, we see a crow hanging in the front yard. I thought, odd, let me take a picture of it. Afterwards, I put my phone on the roof of the car to strap the baby in. I put my stuff away and drive off. An that’s how my phone was gone ladies and gentleman. Fell off right off the top of my roof. And the worst part is I put it there. So, the point if my story? Although everyone has a million squillion things going on, take a breath. When you’re feeling frazzled, take a break. Even a small break will suffice, otherwise Murphy’s law comes into play and the worst begins to happen. So please learn from my mistake and don’t do so much that you forget where you put things. Take that break like u should have and carry on.

This little strawberry patch brings me such a small sense of accomplishment. So I thought I’d share it. It also relaxes me to water and watch it grow.

Keeping the baby entertained

One of the things that I do when I have to work late and still squeeze studying in AND watch the baby while doing all this is first- not freak out. My son is a year and 9 months. We’ve gotten through he stage of him eating crayons, but he’s not so much into coloring alone. What I have found is that he loves to paint. Now I’m not saying that he’s going to paint for 3 hours, but I’ll get 30 min to 45 mins of uninterrupted time. Make sure of course, that its washable because the paper isn’t the only thing that tends to get a paint job. But this is one way to get more time to reading and getting your work done so that you can spread your time to other things hat need to get done.