To me, the 4th of July always means work… It’s a holiday and if you work retail, you can rest assured that you will be at work. Which brings on the question…why work at a place the you’re not happy. Is it normal to always hate your job?
Adults- older people than myself- always say that if you do something you love, you’ll never work a day in your life. I’ve always worked retail and although it has its perks- I sometimes wonder how different things would be if I worked if I was already in my career and really enjoying my job…well here’s to figuring that out!
I saw this photo and quote and… Maybe she’s right. Or maybe that’s how you feel when you’ve found your calling. Here’s to everyone still figuring their life out!
“Nothing in life is easy” said every parent alive right now.
If you’ve ever taken a 7 hour exam, then you can relate to the brain fart that is the 48 hours after the exam. After stopping your life to prepare for said exam, and stressing yourself for months on end, your brain just kind of stops. What exam am I talking about you may ask? The First year law students exam.
Law school is one of those animals that has many routes. As for me, I have taken the part-time, on-line DIY type of learning. The only caveat is that you must prove to the state that you have learned first year topics as the students that have gone to an ABA school- this means American Bar Association approved school. So $700 dollars and 7 hours later, you must wait about 2 months before your results come in the mail…arghhhh!
Anyhow, enough of my complaining. I’m happy that we have the option to pursue higher learning once family life and/or work begins. To anyone else that is pursuing higher learning, you rock. Like you rock so hard, that if I knew you i’d buy you coffee and a cupcake. This shit is hard. Really hard. Especially when the kids want your attention or want to play…or everyone else is hanging out and having fun without you. You keep telling yourself that it will be worth it in the end but it really doesn’t feel that way all the time.
If you are on a similar path like I am…keep going. As hard as it is there is life after school. And hopefully the kids won’t remember- or they will remember and they will be happy that their parents want to be better.
I know women probably suffer from this after having a baby…and that is losing your hair… A lot of it. Postpartum alopecia was something I had never heard of until it happened to me. I lost some with my first baby and even more with my second. Here’s a picture a few months after her birth:
missing my hair
It’s worse than it looks and oddly enough my little girl and I are missing hair up front! It’s a small issue I know but it bugs me. I work in front of people all day long so you can imagine the difficulty in hiding this – so far all I wear are headbands and I’m waiting for it to get longer for bangs…anyhow that is all I have for now!
My hair is finally at the point where it is blending in with the rest of my hair (joy!). I’m getting so close to being able to cut bangs… Just counting down the time!
My only concern now is all the gray hair that is starting to pop up. It’s even more noticeable now that I no longer dye my hair. I hate that gray hair is noticeably coarser than regular hair. Blah. At least the bags will come soon…until next time!
As a youngster, when I was asked “What do you want to be when you grow up?” I always thought: Lawyer. Even now in my adult life, this is still the career I want to pursue. And now there are a few different ways to go about doing it. You can attend school either physically or on-line. I have done both so far, and let me tell you neither is easy. In fact, I find that attending school on line is much more difficult than attending school with physical students. At this point in my life, I have often felt like giving up. I am over 30 and I have kids and pets and a house that somehow always remains in a messy state. But the road I have chosen to pursue my goal is a rough and lonely one. I chose to go to school on line and now have realized that I need to put on three pairs of big girl panties to finish this goal. Giving up is not an option- especially the lofty debt attending any type of schooling puts you in.
Today I decided to postpone taking the baby bar exam. I missed it the first time around due to scheduling, but this time there is so much going on, that I feel like for my sanity and for the sake of giving the exam all i’ve got, I should wait. Even though deep down it isn’t what I want to do, I feel that I need to wait. I go back to work in two weeks from maternity leave and as soon as I go back, my husband goes to training for a couple of months for a new job. I suppose sometimes, you really have to cut yourself some slack and look at the bigger picture and realize putting things off isn’t so bad.
Now I start planning on tackling this exam once again and caring for the kids, pets and home. I know I sound so whiny but sometimes I miss being a kid when all you had to worry about was yourself. It is funny to me know that when I was in college when older people would complain about life, I didn’t understand nor was I sympathetic…now I am those people!!! Funny how the tables turn and now I know exactly what I would say—Take your time.
My new mini me agreeing with my mood!
Launch day for this much awaited bigger phone is tomorrow. For iPhone fans this is great— for employees, this means being at the store at 6 am and working until 9:30 pm. (Tears) but either way, most of us are used to this so we deal with it. This year, besides getting enough sleep, I made it a point to have bright nails and lips. I don’t normally pay attention to these things, but lately these “girly” things perk up my mood- especially on such long labor days. I picked “f- bomb” by urban decay and a ‘Pulp Fiction’ inspired nail polish called “Mrs. Mia Wallace” as well as clear polish from pixel. This launch along with studying for finals makes for very busy days. Anyhow, the kid and I are hopefully going to get a good 5 hours of sleep! At least, iOS 8 seems very nifty!
Photo of polish and lipstick for the day!
Carter watching Pocoyo while mom does homework–and snaps this shot
I have stopped to smell the roses- at least for a few minutes before I begin my silly essay writing assignments. Today is Saturday and often for most people, its a wonderful day off. For me, it’s hump day and school day. I bought my son a play doh cake mountain which is why he is thoroughly entertained for the morning. I remember the fun of play doh as a child and now as an adult, I find these hard dried out balls of modeling compound all over the house. I suppose it’s all a give and take. He’s turning 3 on September 27th. I cannot believe almost 3 years have gone by. I am more tired than I have ever been in my life. I am more forgetful than I thought I would ever be, but I feel like I am smarter than I ever was. I think of all the silly things I used to think were important, and all the silly things I used to worry about. For example tanning. My good friend and I had a membership to a tanning salon because we were convinced we looked awesome. Then some months later I found a zillion moles than thankfully have not gotten any bigger or changed in shape. I used to worry about my purses not being “designer” enough and now–I just hope my purses can fit a diaper and some wipes! It just baffles me how superficial I was and now I am more realistic. Don’t get me wrong, I still want nice things…but they are just thoughts. With the endless list of things to do, places to clean and topics to study, I barely find enough time to just think and be still let alone shop for things that cost as much as my bedroom set. It’s funny how birthdays have a way of forcing you to re evaluate life and they way things are. I hope everyone has a wonderful Saturday!
My exam is in 5 days and I believe this is why I have not been able to sleep. The stress of it is keeping me up at night- to the point that I may just get up and start studying again! Blurggg!
At least, I’ll be very close to the test site…
This lovely place is where I’ll be staying at during my test…at least it’s close to fun!
My exam is in exactly 14 days! Am I nervous? No. Am I afraid I am going to forget all the information I am reviewing? Possibly. I did a bit of research into how to have a better memory- better yet, how to be smarter. I ran across a blog called thefeelgoodlifestyle.com. There were a few recommendations that worked for him, and so I decided to try a few. I picked up a few supplements on Tuesday- Cholline, Ginko Billoba, fish oil and spirulina. Now the cholline I had never really heard of. Its supposed to help with memory and with metabolism. Ginko has a history of helping with memory from what I read- these were two of the few that were recommended. Fish oil I got because I don’t eat fish and I figured I should have it. Spirulina is supposed to be a superfood. I bought it a long time ago at Sprouts in powder form and I couldn’t stomach it. So this time I bought it in pill form. So far? I feel more awake- I don’t feel groggy when I wake up. As far as memory? The exam will tell.
Another thing he mentioned was exercising in the morning. This I kind of knew because I used to work out in the morning. Then I got lazy and stopped. This was the first morning that I woke up and did Yoga- the Jillian Michael’s yoga. I find that it wakes me up but doesn’t wipe me out. And so far, I’m not yawning or wanting to go back to sleep.
One of the other things he recommended was Luminosity.com. I had seen commercials for this a while back. Its supposed to be a brain workout for about 15 minutes a day. I used it a few times, but in order to continue, there is a monthly fee. Now its a fairly affordable fee, but I suppose you could just play chess or checkers. I may try it out and see if there is a difference- maybe after my exam.
I will report back and see if any of these supplements actually made a long term difference. I have found that visualization is pretty good at helping my memory, but I want to see if any of these things enhance it! Have a lovely day!
May is a busy month for me- my birthday, anniversary, Mother’s Day, boyfriends birthday, siblings birthdays and parent’s anniversary. Phew! More importantly, this means that I have a month before my baby bar exam happens. Baby bar– what is that? Well, what it is, is a very pricey exam that you must take if you choose your legal education through distance learning (on-line school). I will admit that when I first heard of this method, I was a bit surprised. I had no idea that it existed. I went to UCR (traditional school campus) so I thought- why would anyone want to go online? Well, when I made the decision to go this route, it was because of convenience and price. I am able to work full time, take care of my son and take on a rigorous legal education- and still have a little time for my personal relationship. Now, don’t get it twisted—it is hard as heck to get this all done in a timely manner. I often am late with assignments- which the school has a great way of getting me back on track- and the house is almost always a mess, but its doable. SO these next few weeks for me will be very very difficult as I will be studying until my eyes bleed.
My work in progress office/study
We took a trip to Las Vegas not too long ago. Living in the high desert, were not too far away. Anyhow, the boyfriend wanted to go to a “shoe convention.” Yes these really exist and they are not just for women. Here, its mostly guys who are very into tennis shoes. So it was mainly just walking around, looking at other peoples shoes. Not bad, just not my idea of what I would want to do in vegas.We also had our two year old son with us, so that being said, it would be impossible to do what I really wanted to do (party!). Don’t get me wrong, I definitely understand that with kids now “fun” consists of different things. So we made it a grownup kid trip. Here are a few pics I snapped as we walked around the place.
We were upgraded because the cheapie room we booked was gone- YES it pays to get to places late!
We stayed at the Luxor hotel–This is my mini taking a picture with an “artifact.”
At the Coliseum right before the show in the middle of the mall. The Greek gods go through another tragedy.
Chinese New Year at the Bellagio.
So to say the least, the trip was fun and there was quite a bit to see. I didn’t catch any of the big shows, or go to any clubs, or even beach clubs, but we still had a lot of fun looking around and eating at several buffets!