Baby Blairs birthday cake gifted to her by her auntie 🙂
As I have gotten older I’ve hated my birthday. They used to be constant reminders of the things that I had not yet accomplished, and a reminder that time is passing. Since having children, this has all changed for me. Don’t get me wrong, they still remind me that time is passing, but its a sweet reminder. Now I get to plan birthdays for my little ones and they have such a good time on their day. I think that everyone for the most part enjoys being celebrated, but kids especially love it when there is a day completely dedicated to them.
Baby girl with her auntie preparing to hit the piñata
We put this party together super last minute and I’m so glad we did. Initially I wanted to do something super elaborate- like what you see on pinterest. Don’t get me wrong, there are some very creative and cute things on there and sometimes its overwhelming. Those pictures sometimes make me feel like my party isn’t good enough. I’ve gotten over that. Now I make it about the kids and what they enjoy instead of caring about what other people think about it. We did it and everyone including the kids had a good time. They were so cute taking turns on the slide and throwing the balls (they were soft) at each other.
kids play area
kids destroying my living room
I love how simple kids are. It’s always a reminder for me to chill and stop worrying about all the things I can’t control and to live in the moment because it goes fast.
Picture I took at a stop off in Cambria, California
“You reap what you sow.”
I want to believe that age brings more than just wrinkles and body aches. As I turn 35 I begin to wonder what else life has in store for me. Looking at the history of when I started writing on WordPress- apparently 7 years ago (gasp!), I look back at my first portion of my life. I think of all the mistakes, all the laughter, the happiness and the trials. My only regret is not documenting more of it in photos and in writing.
As I enter the second portion of my life (35-65), I am excited to see what life has in store. I now have 3 children who are happy vibrant and exhausting, but give me the most joy I have ever experienced. There is not enough information out there to tell you that being a mom rocks- mostly because it is as scary as it is fun. As a person, you will be tested in the oddest ways possible- from whether your child should be on Youtube, getting unsolicited advice that is mostly insulting to you as a mom down to how to function within a relationship when you are exhausted.
Photo of my little tribe in front of a pizza shop at Paso Robles, California
There is something freeing about getting older that I am not quite accustomed to. Being unbothered. As a teenager, I remember being so – because I didn’t want my friends or their friends to think that I was a weirdo. Now, I could care less. It is such a freeing feeling. To be yourself despite the opinions or feelings of others. To be able to quit a job that holds you back and to give yourself time to find what you truly want to do.
It hit me finally that you only have one life. Just one. I never thought of life in these terms because I didn’t have to. Now that I have kids, I think of what I will be able to teach them so that they can avoid the mistakes that I made and I think of all the memories that we will create together so that they have them to fall back on when the going gets tough. I think of making their life easier so that they are happy and content which in turn will make me happy.
Anyhow, from now on, I will document as much as I can so that I have something to look back on when I become forgetful which has already started to happen. Also just so that when I ask myself “Where did the time go?” I will know exactly where it went. I hope you all have a beautiful day and enjoy today to the fullest.
XO ~ Liset
As a youngster, when I was asked “What do you want to be when you grow up?” I always thought: Lawyer. Even now in my adult life, this is still the career I want to pursue. And now there are a few different ways to go about doing it. You can attend school either physically or on-line. I have done both so far, and let me tell you neither is easy. In fact, I find that attending school on line is much more difficult than attending school with physical students. At this point in my life, I have often felt like giving up. I am over 30 and I have kids and pets and a house that somehow always remains in a messy state. But the road I have chosen to pursue my goal is a rough and lonely one. I chose to go to school on line and now have realized that I need to put on three pairs of big girl panties to finish this goal. Giving up is not an option- especially the lofty debt attending any type of schooling puts you in.
Today I decided to postpone taking the baby bar exam. I missed it the first time around due to scheduling, but this time there is so much going on, that I feel like for my sanity and for the sake of giving the exam all i’ve got, I should wait. Even though deep down it isn’t what I want to do, I feel that I need to wait. I go back to work in two weeks from maternity leave and as soon as I go back, my husband goes to training for a couple of months for a new job. I suppose sometimes, you really have to cut yourself some slack and look at the bigger picture and realize putting things off isn’t so bad.
Now I start planning on tackling this exam once again and caring for the kids, pets and home. I know I sound so whiny but sometimes I miss being a kid when all you had to worry about was yourself. It is funny to me know that when I was in college when older people would complain about life, I didn’t understand nor was I sympathetic…now I am those people!!! Funny how the tables turn and now I know exactly what I would say—Take your time.
My new mini me agreeing with my mood!